我不懂

Honestly, I don't know why I'm in such a mood. It seemed like a fine day and everything was good all through dim sum and such. It seems like after I woke up from my nap everything was going to hell.

It's not like I'm insane or anything, but I know people think I need to go back to counseling.

So today a lot of my stuff came back to me. My boxes, drawer carts, CDs, dresses, some jackets, etc...not all of it, but some of it. And honestly, it made me upset to see them. I didn't want them and I got frustrated when I saw them. I got rid of most of the stuff and then my aunt brought back more stuff. All I asked for was a drawer of papers from my old room, not my jackets or other shit. I don't want any of it and no one seems to get it. I don't want all the clothes back or the drawers. I had a list of things I wanted.

1. My paddle and sorority gifts
2. My Jay Chou stuff
3. 1 dress that I need for Monday
4. A drawer full of papers

And when I asked my aunt where the papers were she said that my third aunt and my mom were having a crying fest and she didn't want to make it worst by going in to get my papers.

And honestly, it wasn't about the stuff. It wasn't about the crying fest. It was the stuff that was said about me. I've learned that you shouldn't listen to everyone and that not all of your elders deserve respect nor should you always listen to them. I've learned this more than once but for some reason what they say always manages to tear me down.