大學

So I managed to get sick at Disneyland. Go figure.

It's been a while since I've made mention much of anything other than nothing. So today I'm going to fill this place with more nothing.

Why do I post here? This is, after all, the Internet. Things can be found. This can be found. So why do I post all these things when I know that there will be this chance where people can find my blog and expose all of its secrets? I think for the same reason that anyone blogs. I kind of want them to know.

I post and I post and I type and I type and only a few people know about this blog. Maybe 2 or 3 people at most. Those two or three people are the select few that I want to know about all of this. But what about the rest of the world. What about the other bajillion people that I've met over the course of my lifetime? Or even the few that I still keep close? Who knows?

I don't want them to come into this little private space of mine. If they happen to stumble upon it, then good on them. But for me to disclose my drama like that, nah.

還有兩天

I'm two days away from being 20 and no longer being a teenager. Oh goodness.

Well, the one thing I like about my birthday is that it signals the holidays are in full swing. :) I've been emo lately, but that's because I've been listening to old emo like songs.

So for some reason I felt this indescribable need to post that I was applying to HKU. Well, I'm also applying to CUHK, PolyU, and HKUST as well. I just need to get away from here. Enough of that for now.

I've been listening to N Sync songs lately. It's a Christmas thing. :) Every Christmas I listen to N Sync Christmas songs just because I love them so much. There are a couple other ones too but I don't think I have them anymore. Anyway, there's one N Sync song that has been sticking out. Two now that I think about them. "You Don't Have To Be Alone" and "Don't Wanna Spend One More Christmas Without You".

And now I just killed my emo mood listening to happy songs. HAHAHA...Too bad! :)

Happy Birthday to me -2 days! <3

一類

So today I've decided to apply to Medical School. In Hong Kong.

Weird right? I've talked about it since I got home from Hong Kong but I've never really put too much thought into it until today.

I feel like I'm rushing things, but it's something that I want. I've started my applicaton process and the only thing remaining is for me to write my personal statement and collect documents.

Am I doing the right thing? Am I pursuing the dream that I've always wanted, just in a different direction? I'm worried and I'm kind of scared, but I really need to get out of here and so many people know that.

If possible, I want to start off on a fresh clean slate where whatever happened at Cal Poly stays at Cal Poly. I want to start off brand new in a place where no one knows me. I want a second chance at college. I won't graduate til I'm about 25, but I'll be an M.D. I'll be a doctor of medicine. Isn't that something that I've always wanted?